Punchline…”Don’t pay her!”
Speaking of Hormones….ugh! I stopped my regular menstruation 4 years ago. At the time I had mixed reactiions. I was happy to not deal with a visit from “Aunt Flo” each month and saddened that I lost what I thought was my womanhood. The inability to produce children, and the loss of my mind due to menopause.
Amazing, the very thing that I deemed a curse also dictated my feelings on my womanhood. I do not want to have anymore children. I do want to continue feel feminine and wonder with the decrease of estrogen how long before I look like a linebacker? Little things can now be attributed to menopause…headaches, backaches, dizziness, brain fog, hot flashes etc. Weren’t these little things also attributed to my monthly visitor too? It never ends….
I can see changes making an appearance over the past few years, the light moustache/goatee hairs and the slight heaviness around my middle area. Last week I had a hot flash wearing a N95 mask in the middle of a department store while wearing winter gear. I was perspiring with room spins and foggy brain. I can’t distinguish if this was a hot flash or claustrophobia. A newly developed feeling with the introduction of face masks. Either way, symptoms were the same.
Being told “Now you don’t have to buy pads and tampons anymore!” is not true. There is always a stash at hand in case a visiting daughter or guest needs it. As for me, I now have bladder pads. I just traded one type for the other. I still have the same deer in the headlights feeling making a choice when it comes to just picking a brand/absorbency level. So many options!
Hormone replacement therapy is something that I just started. Process of elimination; it ain’t in the pill form or the patch version either. I can affirm It is not a very dignified way of replenishing what Mother Nature has taken away. Nonetheless it seems to do the trick!
All I ever wanted to do was age gracefully. To look my age, and feel great doing it. This is certainly being accomplished by me. I do embrace my wrinkles, lines, stretch marks and yes even the little unexpected hair here and there!
Every single part of my markings reflect my womanly journey……so far…..so good.
(((Hugs))) 🥰
MCM
Mid-Century Mama 